I was born a fetus....and still am one.

People seem to always be completely baffled when i tell them that i am 19.

It normally follows with a:

-jaw drop

-wide eyes

-accompanied with a "huh!?!?" expression

because they normally think that i'm 12 when they see me. like...ACTUALLY 12.


I get offended half the time by it but the other half of me doesn't really care. Because whether i like it or not - that's who i am.


I think a part of me will forever be juvenile. Not just in my looks but how i act too. I choose to act that way because i have fun doing it. I don't act immature, just....juvenile at times. I have gone through many scary "grown up" situations that one would think to make me some serious and depressed 19 year old adult. But whats the fun in that?! I've learned from those experiences. I have built the strong core i need and then proceed to having my fun most of the time.


No offence to all you adults out there.....but i'm in no rush to grow up. I'm sure many people close to me have heard me say:

"I NEVER WANT TO GROW UP. I WANT TO LIVE IN NEVER NEVER LAND WITH PETER PAN"

Well.......it's true folks! During my grade twelve year i had an extremely hard time accepting the fact that i was leaving high school and actually had to start turning into an adult. I still am having a hard time. 

Deciding which road i want to go down when i see none made with yellow bricks, isn't such an easy decision to make........until recently - when i got my new summer job:

Working with kids.

I think that i have found the answer that I have been looking for for 2 years.

I think i finally figured out how i can relive the thing that i hold most dear to me.

I think that i found out how i can make my biggest impact on the world.

I think i want to work with kids for the rest of my life.

They are innocent. They are sponges. They are beautiful. They are happy. They are excited. They have energy. They are creative. And i want to be all of that with them. And teach them all the life lessons i've learned. And not get angry at them. And love them like i loved my childhood - because that's what they are.

Children that will change my life.

And i want to change theirs.

My world has finally been lifted up and spun with a twirl of satisfaction after 3 years. 

Could this be my yellow brick road?