Fog Before The Storm.

That sick feeling is in my stomach again   -    It always comes before a storm.
Dark and unforgiving   -   the clouds rush back that aren't so warm.
A fear. It lives in every part of me   -   I'm afraid to move too fast.
It's the thought of losing more again   -   I hate letting go of the past.
Somethings just never wash away...

little child

Running round this house

& he never leaves.

He will never leave.

& the fog comes up from the sewers

& glows in the dark

Baby alligators in the sewers grow up fast

Anything you want it can be done

How did you go bad?

Did you go bad?

Somethings will never wash away...

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=wWucA7e-LRg

Music X: Something I Can Never Have

I still recall the taste of your tears.
< < Echoing > >  your voice just like the  [ [ ringing ] ]  in my ears.
My favorite dreams of you still wash ashore.
Scraping through my head 'till I don't want to sleep anymore.

You make this all go away.
I'm down to just one thing.
& I'm starting to scare myself.
You make this all go away.

I just want something....
              I just want something I can never have.

You always were the one to show me how.
Back then I couldn't do the things that I can do now.
This thing is slowly taking me apart.
Grey would be the color if I had a heart.
Come on tell me...

In this place it seems like such a shame.
Though it all looks different now - I know it's still the same.

Everywhere I look you're all I see.
Just a fading fucking reminder of who I used to be.

                 I Just Want Something I Can Never Have.

A Trip Down the Rabbit Hole

Everything depends on our frame of mind.

Certain realms of our mind go unlocked, unless you embark on a trip down the rabbit hole.......

http://www.cowboybooks.com.au/html/acidtrip1.html

I Wanna Take You Higher

Everything that is going on in this performance...
what it all means...
what it stands for...
its context...
its energy...
perfectly encapsulates what goes on in all muscle fibres when one hears great music. This performance vibrates the soul of whoever experiences it.
It embodies the desperation for a good feeling.

Live Fearlessly and Lovingly

The one thing we can take from death is the lesson to live fearlessly and lovingly.

It is cowardly to die along with those who have passed over. It simply does not make sense to.


There is only one difference between the living and the dead:
and it is that the living still have the opportunity to continue to grow and experience.
I cannot say that I understand why anyone in this world would want to give that up.


Let the dead value the gift of life too so that they can live on through you...


but it is so important to go on living that much better and that much more lovingly knowing that you are carrying them in your hearts forever. 


The love in your hearts is all you need to carry you through each day.
You know it's in there.
Feel it and keep walking forward.

Everybody Knows It's A Charade

"This is another paradox,

that many of the most important impressions and thoughts in a person's life are the ones that >>flash>> through your head so fast that fast isn't even the right word,

they seem totally different from or outside of the regular sequential clock time we all live by, and they have so little relation to the sort of linear, one-word-after-another-word English we all communicate with each other with that it could easily take a whole lifetime just to spell out the contents of one >>split-second's flash>> of thoughts and connections, etc.

- and yet we all seem to go around trying to use English (or whatever language our native country happens to use, it goes without saying) to try to convey to other people what we're thinking and to find out what they're thinking,

when in fact deep down everybody knows it's a charade and they're just going through the "motions."

What goes on inside is just too fast and huge and all interconnected for words to do more than barely sketch the outlines of at most one tiny little part of it at any given instant."

-David Foster Wallace

Tragedy

I love you so much.

I'm gunna let you

kill me.

There's a ghost in my lungs

& it sighs in my sleep.

Wraps itself around my tongue

as it softly speaks.

Then it walks - then it walks with my legs

to fall

to fall

to fall

to fall

to fall

at your feet.

-F&tM

I Am God

There once was a girl

Who knew everything that was wrong

& wished nothing more but to make it right…

She would day dream about the clouds and how their vastness could open up her brain

To a place where she could think and see miles away from her with no end in sight.

The end was near - it seemed

& she thought about what it must be like…

…To feel her soul leaking out of her limbs.

Would she be worthless?

She already is.

Right here as she exists on earth.

No one could bring her to that heaven where the sky runs high and the earth lies far far below.

That’s where she wants it to be.

But she belongs here.

Far

     Far

           Below.

One of the Greatest Principles That I Live By

This is an age where one hero cannot conquer Evil.

Evil is a dis-ease presented to us as our fate.

Many times, it is presented to us as an illusion of goodness, so we get confused, don’t free ourselves from it and be destroyed by it.

To conquer evil, each one of us must first clearly see what it is…

that it is a curable dis-ease.

Then work to release us from it’s power in a way we can.

Luckily, there are so many of us in the world, it is enough for all of us to do what we can do with joy, and not feel depressed that we are not doing enough.

We should first IMAGINE PEACE

since we create our destiny by first imaging what destiny we want for ourselves.

We should ask others to IMAGINE PEACE as well.

One thing that is interesting is you cannot be violent while you are imagining peace.

If all of us in the world imagined peace at all times, there will be no time for us to create dis-ease of any kind.

The next thing we should do is to ask to heal the world by asking your healing power to come out in a big way.

Your intent of healing will start to show it’s power by just asking for it.

Sometimes, you will be healing a situation which is not near you, so you won’t see it’s effect.

But healing is being done, regardless.

Again, when all of us in the world ask the world to be healed, it will be.

Know that it is that simple.

             Because all of us are one.

                         We affect each other right away.

We affect each other even when we are in fear / confusion / anger / and wanting to destroy the world and help to increase the dis-ease.

That’s how effective we are.

Start doing what you can do.

The Universe will be affected right away as you start to think in the right way to correct the dis-ease in our world.

Start with something small.

Do one nice thing a day.

Call your mom and tell her you are thinking of her.

Look at the tree and admire it’s beauty in words and in action.

Send a message to your friend what you respect about her/him.

Send your message through the internet how you love life and why..well, that’s big!

If you keep doing that for three months you will see the difference in your life.

Be creative.

Do what you can do.

By that, you will be starting the wheels of goodness to turn.

- YOKO ONO

TTC aka Toronto's Talent Community

My subway treck home today was not like any other and I can thank a courageous musician for that.
After fiddling with his tuning keys for 10 minutes because of - what seemed - the desire to be absolutely perfect in what he was about to do...

A green haired young man in a wheelchair with 2 leg casts let out a  <<s c r e e c h i n g  >> chord on his electric guitar and exclaimed: 

"ONE DAY I'M GOING TO BE A FAMOUS MUSICIAN!

I am going to play some songs for you today.

Donations will be kindly accepted either during or after the performance."

He proceeded to explain that his first song was called "Charles Atlas" and after a few moments of some more last minute readjusting, he began to play.

I sat there watching him
and probably was the only one in the cart doing so.
I was so pleased that he decided to act on his confidence despite his condition. As I 
approached my stop, I walked over to him and placed a subway token in his hand and said:

"Here's to doing this again on another subway cart.

Great job, good luck, and keep up the good work!"

I walked off smiling.